(CNN Spanish) — Netflix published the last three chapters of its documentary series Harry and Meghan. In the final three episodes, the Duke and Duchess of Sussex tell details about Meghan’s suicidal thoughts and Harry recounts how his brother, Prince William, yelled at him when he announced the decision to stop being full-time members of the royal family and move to USA.
Harry and Meghan also share more self-recorded footage and never-before-seen photos of their family life, including little Archie.
The couple very openly expresses their disappointment with the “palace” or “the institution”, as they refer to the royal family, for not protecting and supporting them as they had hoped.
Meghan’s suicidal thoughts
Such was the pressure of the media on the couple and Meghan in particular that the Duchess revealed how her mental health suffered and she had suicidal thoughts during her time in the UK.
“This would all stop if I weren’t here. And that was the scariest thing, it was such a clear thought, ”he explains in the documentary.
“I remember that she told me that she wanted to kill herself, and that broke my heart,” Doria Raglan, Meghan’s mother, says with grief.
Prince Harry showed his frustration that he could not do more for his wife, admitting that he did not handle the situation in the best way.
“I knew she was suffering, we were both suffering, but I never thought it would get to that point, the fact that it would get to that point made me feel upset and ashamed.”
What William and Carlos said when they told them that they would leave their posts
After spending Christmas in Canada in 2019, the final decision to leave everything was not easy and Harry details for the first time the behind-the-scenes negotiations with his family for his departure, especially the meeting in Sandringham with his grandmother Queen Elizabeth II , her father, now King Charles III, and her brother William, Prince of Wales, after the couple shocked everyone with a statement announcing they would no longer be full-time members, known as “Megxit.”
According to Harry, at that meeting he was offered five options for his future as a member or not of the royal family. The prince chose option 3 that would allow both of them to work independently but also work in support of the sovereign, an option that did not prosper.
“It was terrifying to have my brother yell at me and my father say things that just weren’t true and my grandmother was sitting there taking it all in,” she explained.
According to the prince, the family tension deepened even more after the meeting, when he learned of a statement published on behalf of him and his brother William denying a newspaper report that the prince of Wales harassed them. Harry assured that no one asked his permission to use his name.
“I called Meghan and told her and she started crying because in four hours they had no problem lying to protect my brother and yet for three years they were never willing to tell the truth to protect us,” Harry said.
There was no going back. The couple returned in March for the Commonwealth Mass in Westminster Abbey. It was his last public act and meeting the royal family before his final departure.
“Flight of Freedom”
After some time in Canada, concerned for their safety, as they claim they were being harassed by the paparazi, the couple decided to move to Los Angeles.
In a video recorded by themselves on board the plane that would take them to their new home, Harry calls it “the flight of freedom.”
The Sussexes assure that their new life in Los Angeles gives them the freedom they always wanted for themselves and little Archie and Lilibeth.
“There are times when I’ve been upset, but I can’t be that upset because we genuinely are exactly where we should be,” the prince says.
Buckingham Palace has reiterated that it will not comment on the content of the documentary.
See here the suicide care and prevention lines in Latin America and Spain.
How to get help for someone who might commit suicide:
Call 1-800-273-8255 in the United States to reach the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline. Provides free and confidential assistance 24 hours a day, seven days a week, for people in suicidal or distressed crises. You can learn more about their services here, including their guide on what to do if you see suicidal signs on social media. You can also call 1-800-273-8255 to talk to someone about how you can help someone in crisis. Call 1-866-488-7386 for TrevorLifeline, a suicide prevention counseling service for the LGBTQ community.
For assistance outside the US, the International Association for Suicide Prevention provides a global directory of international resources and hotlines. You can also turn to Befrienders Worldwide.